Last year I didn't visit here very much. Looking back I see why now but I didn't see it then. I was in a different place at the beginning of last year and pursuing things in life that took me off my usual course. I didn't know it at the time but it ultimately wasn't where I wanted to belong, where my hearts desires really are and now, now that God has circled me back, opened my eyes a little more, I see that this is where I want to be. I missed this place too.
I love connecting with people through blogs and writing and have noticed even more so over the past few weeks how much I miss each of them and how I've missed the chance of meeting some of the new friends I have made. I love to write even though I'm not all that great at it and even though I'm usually one big run-on sentence I like it. I think I like the expression of my heart in writing more than the actual art of writing but it's me and I like that part of me...for the most part anyway :).
I have realized that when I read, when I write or when I'm designing, I feel the most at home and it's when the noise of life truly goes silent. I can hear my heart whisper. I can hear God's still quiet voice. I like the whisper. It's refreshing, it refuels me and I walk away with my cup overflowing once again.
But to write here and be real and true and purposeful - that is my desire and also my struggle at times. I have recently discovered Ann Voskamp. Do you know her? Now she's an incredible writer, incredible heart and story. She has this great bloggers prayer on her website that I loved and can relate to. This moved my heart to blog with a different purpose so this is now why I'm here (thank you Ann):
May I write not for subscribers...but only for Thine smile,
May my daily affirmation be in the surety of my atonement,
not the size of my audience,
May my identity be in the innumerable graces of Christ,
never, God forbid, the numbers of my comments,
May the only words that matter in my life not be the ones I write on a screen
but the ones I live with my skin.
Love being back and excited to see where this goes. I pray when you glance across these pages that your heart is somehow blessed, encouraged and maybe even a little chuckle or smile. Grab a latte and join me sometime. A. xo