I doubt. Alot. If you asked me the question straight on I probably wouldn't say I'm a doubter. But I am. If things go my way then I'm all good and I have this thing called life all figured out but when they dont go my way...it's a completely different story. I don't kick and scream and lay face down on the ground screaming...okay well maybe sometimes.
It's more subtle than that and it starts out small. It's like a little tiny doubt at the beginning and then I let it grow instead of trusting. I let it go from something like the little shadow you see on your bedroom wall at night to all of a sudden that shadow (which is just your jeans lumped over a chair) you're now convinced someone is in your house and there's not much talking you down from there. Ever been there when something grows out of control?
When I don't choose to dwell on God's truths, my doubts creep in and sometimes they become a huge monster in my house keeping me scared and awake at night. Fear.
And then I read this and realize I have so much to learn:
We want God to hand us what we want
He says instead, "Take my hand and watch what we can do together."
It may not be what we have in mind.
But it's guaranteed to blow our minds.
With goodness. With grace.
With more than we ever thought possible.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory. Eph 3:20-21
Are you looking for Him? Are you on the edge of your seat knowing He can do more than you could ever ask and think. I truly believe that we can live on the edge of our seat without living in anxiousness. I don't always let this sink in as it should and I doubt, I let the shadow on my walls become a monster in my heart but He promises us that He will do even more for me.